Welcome
The Girl-o...
I am the absolute worst at writing these silly bio things... I will try to write it out more so from the mind, and the heart...as apposed to some silly little form letter!
Name/Nick :: Well, dependent on who you talk to (haha inside joke here!) I am presently known as Allye, Allyebrat, Bangel (WoW), blackangel77, evenangelsfall77...For those close to me, they call me "B", "Brid" or "Bridgett"....but my name IS actually Bridgett. Shocking, I know!
Am I??? :: Single ...and sometime, somewhere looking for "The Right Kind Of Pilot" to come...heh, if you know what I mean. Actually no...not really looking. Just "Out There" I guess you could say ;)
From? :: I originally hail from Vancouver Canada. Most if not all of my family is in Vancouver or surrounding areas. Right now currently transplanted in Kamloops...but I have been known to be a "nomad:.... Its in my blood. Honestly I love being in different places at different times. Who knows where this life will take me?
Whatcha up to? :: At this point in time, and for about uh I don't know, about the past 4 years and something... I have worked in Internet Tech Support. Sure, I love helping people...I don't mind! I am quite the computergeek myself. I also do some Photography on the side, not enough to make a living, but learning as I go.
Fave music? :: a metric tonne of favourites, but the major faves are :: Bryan Adams, NKOTB, Darren Hayes, Savage Garden, Def Leppard, Bon Jovi, some random 80s artists, some random 90s artists, Avril, Weird Al, Linkin Park, Metallica, Amy Grant, Billy Idol, Eminem, Tina Turner, George Harrison, John Lennon, The Beatles, The Rolling Stones, Alanis Morissette..and more!
Fave mooovies! :: The Crow (the original with Brandon Lee), A Knights Tale, Rock n Roll Highschool Forever, The Rock, The Ref, Bridget Jones Diary, Austin Powers series, Gremlins, The Goonies, The Lost Boys, Brokeback Mountain, 10 Things I hate about you, Resident Evil (better on BLURAY yo!), Lilo and Stitch, any Disney movies, Wall E, The 6th Sense, Face/Off, Nightmare on Elm Street Series, Pirates of the Carribean series, National Treasure series...and more!
What do ye like to do? :: To be honest, nothing soothes my soul more then a nice, long relaxing walk down the Stanley Park Seawall. But hey, where I am right now its just not possible. So, what I do is I take long walks through cemetaries, taking pictures along the way. Yes, call me morbid, but hey those tombstones do tell a story. Besides, you can cuddle quite nicely in a cemetary as NO ONE will tell on you LOL! Seriously though, I am right into spending time with my kids (and yes, I have more then my fair share! :P) ...and taking nice long walks. I also love spending time with those close to me, shopping, photography, collecting Disney movies. If you knew me well, you would know that those who I hold dear, I spend the most time with. You never know what tomorrow may bring.
What about YOOOOOU? :: If you know me well, like say one of my close friends (not too sure how my family would "describe me" lol!) you would say I am a believer. And a lover. My friends also say that I have a good heart, and I give too much when things are taken away. I believe in contentment, honestly, loyalty. Anyone who knows me knows I keep my friends REALLY close...and they would also say I love body modifications (LOVE THEM, have so many myself and plan on more!) and I do believe in love. What can I say, I am a born romantic. If I can show emotion and give my all, I will. As I said in the previous comment, I am a believer. I am not a follower. No do I give chase. I love the crazy outdoors, and someday would LOVE to spend nights under the stars again. I will just grab my DSLR, and take a hike someplace if I have time. Those who also know me know, I hold a lot dear. I hold my friends dear. I hold my family dear. I hold my kids even closer. And yes folks, I do hurt and tear like ANY other human out there. My friends would also say that I forgive a lot, which they do say is one of my worst qualities...but hey, thats life. I was given the power, I will use it. I love taking pictures ASK anyone I know. I've been called a many of things, but don't call me home late for dinner! Mwahaha... no seriously, with the life I have lived, with the things I have seen, with the SHIT which has been tossed my way - people ask me how in the world I am still standing straight up. Well, I think about my future. My children (D.A.N.D.K you know who you are and I LOVE YOU!) are my absolute world. Ask anyone I know. They make this life worth living. They are the reason I am still standing straight up. Listen, I love, I cry, I burp, I you know have emotions like ANY other person out there. Life is just sometimes a big ol' bitch, and I take it as I can. Oh, and another quick thing about me - I LOVE movies, music...and my little silver MAC....hmm, gotta name my silly machine.
I also don't do well with "fake people". Those who try to inch their way into your life by "acting" a role that they clearly are not. For example, someone who "tries" to parent my kids, just to get into my pants. Nuh huh. And someone who "tries" to befriend me by lying about their likes/dislikes/wants out of life. I tell ya, the mask finally does come off...and when it does. Wow.; It really does blindside you sideways. I can always read people like a book. Your body tells more then your words do. The people I do respect, the ones who I truly do and want in my life - as the sky is blue....are the positive people. The ones who don't hide, who don't lie. Those who can actually talk to me, and those who won't treat me like I am a china doll. The REAL people. If you are real to me, I will show you the real me. Only a couple of people in this life have seen the real me. And not a single person in the town of Kamloops has seen that yet. As of yet. Who knows, when I finally find the right person (heh, someone who doesn't hide behind who they really are..someone who is an angel, a saint, and who loves children...and who looks damn fuckable in a long black trenchcoat...YUM yum!).....Then they will see the real me. I am just another person. Another face in the crowd if you will. I am easy peasy. I am quite easy going. I love affection, and give it just as easily. And also, heh not to sound like a complete...well you know, but making love under the stars is the most PERFECT thing in the WORLD to me...the world. Treat me like I am your equal, and not as I sit under your boot, and we'll fair well. Treat me like I am just some number, or a page out of a text book, and ye better just close the door behind you... :)
Anything else? :: Heh. I am 30 something years old, and I cuddle up to an ALF doll. He's is the worlds most traveled alien. I have been through so much in my 30 some odd years on this planet, but looking back at things - it has made me into a better person. See, those who walk in and out of your life - no matter how you try, or what you try - they always leave a piece of them behind. Etched into your soul. Out of site, out of mind is the easiest way to go for me. However, I think about what I have gone through - and you know. Ducks and motherfuckin' bunnies yo. Seriously. I have loved, I have loved and lost. That IS LIFE. I don't chase, I refuse to give chase. I have nothing but love and respect for those who have come into my life, and who have left it. I miss my Grandparents like anything, and I wish they could be here today to meet my little girls. But, thats life. You miss what you miss, you cherish what you have. Although someday I do hope to find the person, like my grandparents did, who will want to sit in that chair with me, at 65...playing with a canary like they did. Someday, somehow :) Heh that someone of course needs to have the right kind of wrong, and someone who will enjoy my sick twisted sense of humour. Love that. .... we'll see. Sometime down the road.
I also do not pine. I believed at one point in my life, that I met my soul mate. Situations which have arisen from that though, have made me second guess myself. Which is the WORST feeling in the world, let me tell you. But that is ok. You live, and you learn. According to several, if something is meant to be yours, let it go and it will come back. IF it was never meant to be, it wasn't meant to be. And for the most part in my life, I have met some, loved some, and lost many. It is ok. Life is nothing more then a learning experience. Well hell, with some fun, some rip roaring raunchy love making, and some silliness along the way. I know full well that deep in my heart, that every single person I have met, have walked away from, and lost communication with, has left a mark on my soul. That is all, nothing more and absolutely nothing less. If you think any differently of me, well so be it folks! I seriously am not here to please everyone. Everyone out there has their own thoughts, their own judgments. Make love not war folks@
In my life, atleast in the past several years - I have come to realize that I am not perfect. I had a moment in my life (ok, longer then a moment, but you catch my drift) that I was a horrible person. I was depressed, very obese, and a horrible parent. I know this. I keep ramming the guilt down my throat each and every single day of my life. Look, you either continue the cycle or you grow up, you deal with what you have done, and you roll. I know deep down I had that horrible part in my life, and its been damn near ten years now, but in those ten years I have changed. I am not the person I was ten years ago. I have grown , my kids have grown up around me, all of us together have realised that none of us are perfect. I apologize to them each and every single night when I go to bed, about that time in my life when I seriously was in a huge funk. I was internet addicted to the point where it affected my every day life. I was horrible, HORRIBLE. Hell I wouldn't have wanted myself around either even if I wanted to. But people do change, no matter what others say. They grow and they mature. And they open up their eyes to realise how horrible that part of their life was. They make steps to make sure that NEVER happens again. Look, i'm not perfect. I never claimed to be. People still hang onto that image of me which was ten years ago. Even longer. Thats not me anymore. I wish others could see this, instead of crucifying me about the choices I made YEARS upon years ago. Hold onto that glimpse, but move on with nothing but a smile.
One last thing?? :: I am not the person others make me out to be. All I ask, is to be given a chance. But if you already have your mind made up about me, from the impressions of others - ...the only thing I can say to that is godspeed. May the higher power hold you close, and remove all judgments. Peace out!! (and heh, if you want to fuck with the eagles, you have to learn to fly@)
As the caption says "D A N D K " this is for you.... love you all with EVERY piece of my being.